Saturday, December 5, 2009

I did it I did it!! 5K!!

Today I walked/ran my first 5K!! I didn't even die!!
My number was 1687 and I have it taped to my bathroom door!! I will never forget how good it felt to cross the finish line. I was at the back of the pack, but I finished!!

I am the third one from the right in the picture below!!

I am so happy to have this NSV today!! christmas party tonight so bring on the drinkssss!!

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I am a Athletic Girl stuck (not for long) in a fat body!!

I have decided that I love working out!!

I have been working out every day for at least 2 miles on the treadmill and then doing the circut for another half hour or so. Doing a 5k in January so hoping to get my speed and endurance up by then!!

My surgeon's office is having a group of people walk/run at the breast cancer walk in January!! I am so excited and hopefully I will be able to finish the entire 5k!!

Update on me since surgery:

I have been doing great! I have lost a total of 37lbs since 9/23/09!!! I am going for my 3rd fill next Thursday! I have been stuck at my current weight for over a week even though I have increased my exercise a lot....

I am able to eat pretty much anything that I want at this point, but just smaller portions!

I have been so busy at work over the past few weeks and have not done an update recently...I can't wait for this 4 day weekend to be able to catch up on everyone and post a couple of times! I really miss reading all of your blogs!



Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Fill # 2 and my recent crazy life!!

I was away for a while sooooo here is a little Me update!!
Fill number 2 was the day I got home from vacation from NC! NC was GREAT..the weather was cool and crisp and the leaves were amazing!

I went in for fill #2 and has lost 8lbs in 2 weeks. Dr. was not going to give me the fill, but he decided to after I told him how I had been eating. I was able to eat everything and had never gotten stuck. I got a 1.2cc fill. He pulled 1.6cc out and put in 1.2 more for a total fill of now....2.8! With some extra in the tubing and port.

This fill has been so weird though....The two days after liquids and then soft foods and then the third day I tried to eat and everything got stuck....EVERYTHING!! The next day and every day since then I feel like I have no restriction at all. Weird....

I called and they told me to give it a week and to come back in if I still feel like I have no restriction...ok whatever....will do!

Still trying to think of a name for my band......all suggestions welcome!!

My crazy life:

One of my best friends at work had her baby yesterday!!

Welcome to the world Hunter Emmett!!

My husband's uncle passed away :( So sorry honey! So glad you have amazing memories with him!!

Work has been crazy. We had our evaluations this week for 3 days all day........ the county coalition comes into the preschool to evaluate all of the classrooms and teachers!! We did GREAT though!! My staff was so nervous all week...they all try so hard when it is eval time

I am treating them all to a catered lunch next week!!
Thanks for reading about my craziness!!
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Friday, October 23, 2009

On Vacay, band tight on plane...weird!!

My friend and I left today for a few days away in NC! We flew out of Palm Beach and arrived in Charlotte this afternoon. We also have her 11 month old baby with us. Traveling with an infant can be challenging, but she was so good.

We are just going to relax and enjoy the beautiful fall leaves. We are staying at her parents house and it is amazingly beautiful!!

So I have always heard of the band being tighter on an airplane, but I wasn't sure if it was an individual thing or something that happens to everyone....well, it happened to me. I could feel the band get tighter and then could feel way more restriction on liquid during the flight.

Tonight at dinner I got stuck. It hurt! I got up and moved a little and it felt better, but for me it is true that the band gets tighter when flying!

So, I am scheduled for a fill the day after I get back. I wonder how this will affect things??

I am just going to try to relaxxx, enjoy my vacay, eat well and have fun!!


Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Hungry Day today, but Good News!!

Well, today was a hungry day for me. I have been really good about just dealing with my hunger and drinking alot of water and it usually not so much!! I was hungry all day...I didn't eat badly, but I was hungry and craving food all day. I had a super stressful day at work with deadlines and that used to drive me straight to candy and snack food. I avoided it today, but I wanted it!!

Good News:

I hurt my elbow a few days, I know what you are the hell is that good news??

Well, I guess I did it playing Wii fit or something and yesterday I finally broke down and went to the Urgent Care Clinic after work. I was telling the nurse that I had lap band and he was taking my vitals etc...He asked what I weighed and I told him what I thought...he said "do you wanna check" I sais "sure"...I got on the scale and I was down 4lbs since my fill!! 4lbs and I really haven't felt that restriction yet!!

I am sooooo excited!!

That brings my total to close to 25lbs!!

My dog weighs 25lbs...I mean he is super cute and all, but I don't want to carry him around all day!!

XOXOXO - Robyn

Random Side Note: Grad school Application is finally submitted. Committee meets on Friday for acceptance. Keep your fingers crossed!! I'll let everyone know either way!!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Support Group and Some Random thoughts!

Tonight was support group at the hospital where I had surgery. I did not know what to, off I went thinking that there would be maybe 10-15 people there.....oh no....there were about 50 people!

It is run by the psychologist and nurse manager at JFK bariatric (my surgeon's office). It was really good.....there were people there from pre-surgery to 2 years post-op and most of the time was an open forum!

One girl (about 24) was talking about the negative comments some of her "friends" have made about her taking the easy way out....she said she no longer has them as friends. She was upset and said that she is 1000 miles away from home and going through this alone while at college....this really made me think about all of the support that I have had!

My best friends call everyday to check on me and my DH has been great! Everyone (although not many) at work has been so supportive and I have not heard one negative comment recently!

We all know how the gossip mill works so I am sure there has been some talk, but I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!

Another lady was talking about how she was banded 10 months ago and has only lost a few pounds, but she can barely eat...blah, blah, blah.....a few minutes later she was saying how she eats with a tiny spoon and that eats lots of deserts....ok, maybe thats a part of the reason you have not lost....just a thought!!

Leaving for NC in 3 days!! Pretty excited and pretty ok with what I am eating! I think I am losing, but don't record my weight everyday. I am trying for once a week!

Good news is that someone at work noticed today! They did not know that I had surgery and they said..."you look like you are losing weight...are you ok??"
Since when did being fat = being ok?? Ha...they were trying to be nice so I forgive them!!

Oh, went to see Where The Wild Things Are and I was highly dissappointed! It was nothing like the book....although, I was not sure how you can turn a 7 sentence book into a 2 hour movie, but they tried (at least they think they did).


I am going back to finish my MASTERS DEGREE!! GOOOO MEEEEE!!!
I am starting back in January at Florida State University (Sorry Kristin....GO GATORS!! :) XOXOXO)

This is what my degree will be in:

Instructional Systems (major in Performance Improvement and Human Resource Development)Master of Science!! MY boss said today "with a title like that it better be a BIG diploma"........I agree!!

So, there are all the happenings in my life in a nutshell!!

XOXOXO and Welcome to all of my new followers!! I love you guys and your blogs!!

Friday, October 16, 2009

My First Fill and my first stuck...WEIRD!

Well, my first fill was an experience and a half!!!

I went to my Dr. office for my fill yesterday. I went and got weighed. I only lost one lb since my first post op biggie to me I knew I needed a fill. Good news...I have lost 18 total!!

Well the Dr. came in to do my fill and easilly accessed my port. No pain at all! I could feel the fluid going into my band...It didn't hurt at all it was just a weird feeling.

He put in 7cc, because he said that 3 remain in the port/tubing?? He left the room and I was in the room with the nurse (I ♥ her). She told me to drink a cup of water.

1 sip into the water and it got stuck. It hurt...water hurt!! She looked at me and said...are you ok and I just starred at her blankly....she gave me a plastic tub and I slimed and threw up the water. I couldn't even swallow my spit. She went to get the Dr. and he came in to remove some fluid. Again no pain at all accessing my port!!

Ok...maybe someone can answer this, but when he went in he wanted to retrieve fluid from my band....he only got out 4cc??? he put in 7cc's?? how is this possible? Is it because 2-3 remain in port/tubing?

From the 4cc's that he pulled out he put 2cc's back in. so my first fill was 5cc's with 3 in the port/tubing so 2 in my band?? confused!!

I was able to drink and finish the cup of water!! So home I went...well, off to my crazy world of work!

I stayed on liquids yesterday and today moved to mushies....I have no restriction!

How can I go from completely being blocked from swallowing being able to eat 2 egg whites and grits for breakfast and cup of chili for lunch??

Can 2cc's really make that big of a difference??

I am a little frustrated, but I know that this is a process and it may take a few fills and that it is an ongoing thing! I am trying to eat healthy and stick to around 1200 calories a day, but I am not really losing. you would think that just the reduction in calories alone would make me lose weight....not to mention the addition of exercise etc....

I know I will be successful because I know what I need to do!!

Monday, October 12, 2009

Bandster Hell, Bitch on Wheels and GUMBY!!

That about sums up my day today!!

I am in full fledged bandster restriction! I was talking to my nurse because I have one stubborn incision that wont close and (on another note) she said....."you feel like you didn't even have surgery right?"............this about sums it up!

My first fill is Thursday at 8:30am!! YAY!! I am so excited...not expecting much restriction, but hopefully a little!!

Anyway, I have been such a biatch lately....I am not sure why and this is really not my nature.....(don't ask my husband or staff that question......please...I am under the assumption of if it is not spoken it is not true!!). My explanation for my bitchy attitude is that I'm hungry and trying to really limit my food intake as to not gain during bandster hell! I like my sounds good to me!!

I have been walking every night; even if it is just a quick stroll with my pups! They are loving the extra attention and my Cavalier Zoe has even lost about a pound!!

My mom's dog (Logan) My Cocker (Bobo) My Cavalier (Zoe)

Ok so today work was insane....I work at the YMCA and we have a group that comes in with handicapped individuals so they can play basketball etc...All of them have been so great and sweet and funny......UNTIL TODAY!!!!!

Well, I was in a colleagues office and in strolls a guy about 45 years old...he immediately starts taking things off her book shelf and putting them in his pockets....She says to him "I'm sorry sir those are for a reading program and tries to get him out the door. He leaves with alot of hesitation, some good loot, and some guidance from his aide.

We continue our meeting and about 5 minutes later there is a knock at her back door (leading to the ladies locker room). I figured it was another Director or housekeeping etc....Well, I jump up to answer and this guy starts growling (literally growling) and pushing his way through the door screaming "gumby" at the top of his lungs. I am trying to hold the door shut along with one of my assistants...this guy is so strong. His aide comes running and jumps on his back and he is still fighting to get in the door. My colleague had left the office through the front doorto get help.

I tell him to come around to the front door (which is locked) he falls for this!! Well, not thinking that he would be even more angry when he gets to the front door (DUH!!)....he begins to try to bang down the door (glass) still screaming gumby!! I am shaking at this point trapped in this small office with my assistant!

His aide finally leads him away and my colleague had left earlier to get help still did not return. I feel it is ok to leave at this point and I see the guy (John) and his aide at the end of the long hallway (I was going to write an incident report and get names etc...).....His aide tells him to apologize...he screams "gumby" at me and then takes off running to the office to "get gumby"!

OK let's talk about STRESS frist thing in the morning!! LOVELY!!

Well, tomorrow is another day at the wonderful world of the YMCA!!

I am READY!!

XOXOXO Robyn aka Pookie!!

Welcome to all of my new followers!! I ♥ my followers!!!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Random Happenings in my life!

Hi everyone!! It has been a few days since my last post....geez..that sounded like a confession...haha!!

I am doing ok since surgery 2 weeks ago! I have absolutely no restriction, but I do have my fill in less than one week!! YAY!! Have not lost anything since my follow-up on Monday...I'm ok with that for now :)

One of my incisions(a small on) about 1/4 inch long, is not closing properly. The glue came off and the incision is just kinda

Well...I am a little squeamish and freaked a little. It isn't very deep, but made me crazy. My BF told me to go to Walgreens and get steri strips. I did. Cleaned the area and applied a steri worked great! Gonna call Dr. tomorrow just to check in and let them know what I did, but there is no redness I think I am ok!!

On a food was a bad day (a REALLY bad day) hungry and just never felt satisfied. I didn't eat that horribly, but I couldn't stop thinking about snacking. I KNOW it was head hunger because of the type of day I was having. I need to find a way to deal with my head hunger in stressful situations at work when I used to snack.....any suggestions??

Did not walk last night or tonight...had been walking 2 miles a night....getting back to this tomorrow.

I think my DH and I are going to go to my mom's for the weekend!! She lives on the beach in St. Augustine so it is like a mini vacay....lots of walking for me this weekend!! This is outside her back door!! Not my picture, but basically her view!!

I leave for my vacation in North Carolina in two weeks and I am hoping to lose a bit more before going. We will see!!

That's all for now...I have been pretty boring lately!!

Monday, October 5, 2009

1st Follow-up Post-op!

Hi everyone! I had my first follow up with hot doc today!

Everything is going great and I lost 14.8 lbs since surgery!!! WOW!!!

He has instructed me to move very slowly into normal foods....I am only 2 weeks out....WOW!!
He does not want me eating any dry meats, but other than that I am free to try most anything!

He did schedule my first fill for October 15th (only 3 weks post-op!!).

I did beg him to schedule me early because I am going to be going on vacay and as of right now I have no restriction!

Every follow-up has a meeting with nutritionist and psychologist....they all went fine!

What do you guys eat once you have moved into normal foods? I am so confused at this point!
My nutritionist gave me a detailed list, but I am just not sure how to put it all together into meals etc...

Friday, October 2, 2009

I crossed that bridge...when I came to it!!

So I had a super horrible, terrible bad day!! My staff was annoying me to no end and it seemed like the seconds just stood still!
I even cried on the way home tonight (my job is super stressful). I haven't been sad or upset even 1 time since the surgery. Tonight I just kinda lost it. I was just upset over the day and all of the events of the day!

When I got home my DH was busy with something on the internet and he kinda ignored me and then I was even more upset...cried again....WTF??

I guess he realized that he was being a he came out and we had dinner! I had some sweet potato! He had a salad!

I have always talked about walking the Roosevelt Bridge (so pretty) is only 2 miles total, but the up slope is pretty steep. I never thought I could do it.

A few minutes later DH says, "lets go walk the Roosevelt...if we get tired we can just turn around and go's a beautiful night".
I say ...hmmmph...ok...hmmph...i guess...hmmmp...whatever....hmmmph...where are my shoes.....ugh....hmmmph!!!

WELLLLLLLLLLLLLL ...............OK so tonight I waslked the Roosevelt bridge!


I was shocked...we walked up one side the incline seemed like it would never end and then we got to the other side and going down didn't seem too bad...then I realized DAMN...I have to turn around and do this again.

You know what...I did it AND I DIDN'T EVEN DIE!!!
I am in a much better mood now and feel GREAT about myself!!
So I guess tonight is an NSV for me too!!!

Oh and BTW...I am tight again after exercising (again)....really tight (swallowing water was hard for the initial 5-10 minutes after) Weird because a other times I hardly feel ANY restriction!

No plans for us this weekend, but I do plan on walking that bridge again!!!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

WARNING: Mild Work related vent within!! & UPDATE!!

So my work sucks right now! I am right in the middle of writing the 2010 budgets for 3 different departments...UGH this is what I get to come back to after having surgery...Oh joy!!
Not like I wasn't planning on happens the same time every just seems that I also forget what a royal pain the A$$ it is until this time of year rolls around again!!

Also, there is so much gossip going on at work about a "new position" (really a new old position)they are is driving me insane....just shut the f your jobs and don't worry about this person that doesn't exist yet!
OMG....are they going to be nice, mean...what if they hire a bitch..I hated the last one...what if this one is like her, what if it's a guy...OMG??!!!?? This is all I hear everytime I turn a corner!!

Sorry...just had to vent!!

Soooooo on to bigger and better things.....DAMN wait....I mean SMALLER and better things!!!

I am 8 days post op and feeling really great!! I walked on the treadmill tonight for a little over 30 minutes...I was exhausted though and I used to be able to go longer even before surgery....

Side note: I am so lucky to be a director at the YMCA beacuse we have a huge great gym at my disposal!!!

Hey?? does anyone know if you feel tighter after exercise?? I think I might...or at least today I think I did.....I was only able to eat a few spoonfuls at dinner and was def. able to eat more earlier! Just wondering.....oh the things we ponder when banded!! Gotta love it!!

So I am down 8lbs as of this AM!! This is huge beacuse when I got home from surgery I had gone up 10!! So now down that 10 plus 8 more!!
I know I'm amazing!! I tell my boss that all the time and his come back to me is ..."and humble too"! Ha!!

Tomorrow is my 1st followup appointment with my PCP. No real reason just wants to see me after surgery.
Monday I go to my surgeon. did I ever mention that he is hot?? Well hot damn he is! A little weird (in that I'm super smart kinda weird) but hot none the less!! My BFF was with me in pre-op and he walked in in his surgical gear and both of our mouths fell mom's too......wheewww!! He winked at my BFF too!! Gottla love that!!

Wow...I just realized how random and off topic my post has been tonight....I guess when I am so tired but wired....this is what happens!!

Thanks to all of my followers!! I ♥ ♥ ♥ you guys!!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

1st day back at work 6 days post-op!

Well tonight I feel like I have been hit by a truck...a slow moving and smalish truck, but a truck none the less!

I am just really tired...I did not sleep well last night and then went back to work today and worked 10 hours...UGH!! I got up and walked as much as possible and felt pretty good until about 5:00 then I could feel my incisions starting to sting a little and tiredness creep over me!

I am 6 days post op and eating a mushy least that is what I think it is called....oatmeal, cream of wheat, yogurt, soups etc....
I had egg drop soup for dinner, but could only eat about 1/2 cup.

I get really full on small amounts of food, but I do feel hunger pretty quickly least I think it's hunger!
My tummy growls, rumbles, grumbles and acts hungry....I feel hungry, but I am not sure that I really am or if it is part of the healing?? Anyone??

I have 0 pain and feel wonderful except for being run over by the truck tonight!! Can't wait to get a few weeks normal food and get my 1st fill!!

Only down a few pounds, but I am not really tracking as I am still bloated from surgery I think.

Just wanted to say HI to all of my new followers i ♥ you!!!

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Signs Signs Everywhere Signs...

I went with my hubby tonight to pick up some Chinese soup for dinner and as we were driving down US1 I began to notice all of the fast food restaurants with at least 4-5 cars at each window. This should not be surprising to me at all because a few months/weeks ago that was me sitting in the drive through. What it made me think about (surprisingly was not food or hunger), but I actually felt sorry for those people sitting in the drive throughs.

Am I trying to say I will never eat fast food again....NO, but will I ever be a junkie like I was before....HELL NO!!

I felt sorry for the fat person ordering a double cheeseburger or a large milkshake (not realizing what it is doing to their health or realizing and not having the courage or means to get help). I felt bad for the kids that are only used to eating fast food....I just felt bad. So Sad!

This feeling surprised me....I thought I would be salivating....maybe because I am still sore, full from drinking even a sip of water, or scared, but I really had no desire for any of that food!! Let's hope that feeling lasts!

Now Post op- day 4 update!!

I am doing really well. I think I am back down to my pre surgery weight or close! Remember...I gained 10lbs during surgery (water and swellling I'm sure)!

I am still extremely bloated, but not in pain at all. I am not even taking pain meds anymore. I am going to get some tylenol to bring to work with me on Tuesday....just in case!!

I am hoping this bloating is going to go away soon because it is making it really hard to eat/drink my meals. I don't think I'm getting in enough nourishment....

6oz protein shake
1 popsicle
1/2 cup liquified cream of wheat
1 cup of tea
1 cup of juice
1/2 cup broth
2 teaspoons yogurt

Off to watch Amazing Race!!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

3 Days Post-op!

Well, I am 3 days out from surgery now! I am feeling pretty good and definitely on the mend!
I am tolertating all liguids really well, but get super full after a few sips. I am only at about 200-400 calories a day (from protein shakes mostly).

I was not expecting a weight gain of 10 lbs after surgery....just an FYI for anyone getting banded!! I am now down 6 from there but still 4 above my pre surgery weight. I am completely bloated and swollen and I think this is making up the water weight gain! I am not stressing about it at all....just wanted to give everyone a heads up!

I am feeling hunger...alot, but a few sips of broth or a popsicle takes care of that right away! And then I feel SUPER full!!

I have been trying to walk, walk, walk....and I have gone out to a couple of stores. I stopped taking my pain meds last night and seem to be doing great without them. Today I am going to see my one of my best firends (Sharon) and hang out with her and the kids for a couple of hours! FUN!!

Today, I spent a couple of hours cleaning out my dressers and closet and said goodbye to lots of clothes!! YAY!! NEVER TO BE SEEN AGAIN!!

Well, I hope this bloating and swollen feeling goes away soon....anyone have any info on how long this feeling lasts???

Thursday, September 24, 2009

1 day POST-OP!!

Hi everyone!! I am home from the hospital!

Let me tell you the story of the last 36 hours!!

Surgery Day:

Woke up 6:00am to scrub with antibacterial scrub and then get dressed and off to the hospital. Had to be there by 8:30 and it was an hour away! We got there and then had to wait for an hour (yes, Dr. was angry about this....I'll explain later)

I was taken back to pre-op and there is where the fun began! They started the IV (ouch), gave me a shot of Heparin(this did not hurt or sting) and then I met with Dr., anestheologist, OR nurses and Pre-op nurses. They let my mom, hubby and BF come back into the pre-op area. I was only in pre-op for about an hour. Dr. Larson was running ahead of schedule and wanted to get going!

At this point I had a mini breakdown when one of the nurses was talking to me....they were all really great though! I had never had any kind of surgery before and it just really hit me at that point.

They give me some happy meds (they called it a cocktail). I was wheeled to the OR and asked to scoot onto the operating table. I hear Dr. Larson ask me what time I got there...."8:30"...he then was angry that it was now 11 and they made we wait so long before pre-op. I was asked to take a deep breath and then another thing I knew I was waking up in recovery!!

Recovery room was quick. I was only in there for what seemed like a short period of time and then they wheeled me off to my room! It was a private room. The bariatric unit was being remodeled so I was on a different floor. The room was great (huge)!! My mom, 2 best friends and hubby were all there!!

Pretty much as soon as I got to my room I wanted to get up and walk...I just remembered...walk, walk, walk and that is what I did!!

Susan, ME, my mom and Kristin!!
Below: Me and hubby!!

My mom and best friend Kristin came back with this super cute frog balloon that we named Rudy!!

Kristin stayed with me at the hospital....she was the biggest help ever! The nursing team was amazing at JFK!! Aji was our night time nurse (he was a male nurse) I was freaked out about this at first, but ended up loving him!!
We did not sleep at all during the night....lots of interruptions and we walked alot.

Day 2:

Today I felt worse than day 1. I feel like I have been beat up from the inside out. I went for the barium swallow and all went ok! I was then given a liquid diet and after eating a few bites. The Dr. showed up along with the nutritionist. He cleared me for discharge!! They actually let me walk out of the hospital!!

Now that I am home I am in alot of pain. I am having severe gas pain after eating (well, drinking). I am trying to walk alot, but I am also so tired from not sleeping last night! I am going to take it easy for the next day or so. I am also having alot of incision pain at the port site....


Lots of swelling too:

That about sums up my experience!! I am having a hard time having a productive cough. I am in pain....gas I think...going to take some gas-x strips and maybe a hot tea.

Overall, at this point I am still really happy about this decision!! YAY!!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I'm Off!!

So I'm off to the hospital!! I'm bringing my laptop, but may not have the energy to post! I am a little nervous, but had a great night with my mom and Kristin!! goes nothing....or everything!!
Just wanted to thank all of you guys for the well wishes! You guys are GREAT!!

Monday, September 21, 2009

Tomorrow is the last day of the old me!

Whewwwww! 1 more day left. Tonight I was having some major anxiety over surgery on Wednesday! I am (for some reason) freaking out about the incisions....wondering if they are going to be along my waist line?

So, I was thinking about all of the changes that my body is going to go through....all the curves that are going to appear that I have never seen, all of the clothes that I am going to be able to buy, all the sexy shoes, all of the GREAT things that are going to happen and it really put my mind back into perspective!!

I am a total girly girl at heart! I love shopping, makeup, hair, the color pink, flowers, perfume, sexy clothes and sexy shoes.....out of that list I have never been able to buy the cute/sexy clothes!! Here's to the day I will slip on that sexy dress with a pair of stilettos and paint the town!!

(Random)I am so happy that tomorrow I get to see my bestie and my mom!! YAY!!

Tody was pretty interesting at work....I told my boss about the surgery on Wednesday! He told me that one of our board members has had it and is doing great! He also emailed me a few hours later and said good luck, he'd be thinking about me, and that I have all of his support!

I ♥ him!! (not in a lovey lusty way...just in a nice boss kinda way...LOL)

Other than a few comments from two of my best friends at work that know about my surgery...It was a pretty quiet day in gossip land!!

Well, I have a super busy day at work is budget season so I will be busy writing the 2010 budgets...YAY what fun for me!! At least it will keep me busy and my mind off Wednesday!

If I don't post before my surgery I will post right after!

Wish me luck!!

Sunday, September 20, 2009

2 days to go, GOSSIPPPP and random thoughts!

OMG OMG OMG!!! Two days to go until my surgery!!! My mom and my best friend are coming in to town Tuesday and my surgery is the first case on Wednesday morning!! My other best friend will also be coming to the hospital. So I will have hubby, 2 besties and my mommy!! Lots of support for my one night stay!! Wow!!

Me and Mommy!

Me and Hubby!

Can't Wait To Make Those My Before Pics!!


So...I had a plan not to tell anyone at plan did not work out so well. I am a Director of a large preschool at the local YMCA and in charge of membership. I have about 35 employees...well one of my lead teachers that regularly uses my computer for various things saw lap band talk on my screen and asked other employees if that is what I was doing. Well, the rumor mill spread from there. I called this employee in and told her that I knew that she knew, but it was a very private and personal thing and I wanted to be the one to tell others when I felt comfortable. Well, she was very happy for me and felt bad.

We shall see what the next two days hold at work for me. All I had told one of my bosses was that I was having a procedure questions asked, but I think I am going to tell him the truth tomorrow before the rumors get back to him. I really like him and he is really supportive!!

Random thoughts:

It is going to be weird not to have to shop at Lane Bryant anymore....have shopped there as long as I can remember!!
I wonder if my feet will get smaller??
The fitness director at my Y wants me to join the running club in is a 3 month club preparing you for a 5k (it is a run walk club)....seriously considering it!!

Well, that's about it or tonight! I am tired and my back hurts from cleaning all day...hey, I wonder if my back won't hurt as much?? Anyway, tomorrow should be interesting...

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Sharing some inspirational songs!

My day is getting closer. Only three more days until I have my surgery on Wednesday. I am getting pretty nervous at this point. My pre-op diet is not a problem because I am so nervous I don't want to eat!!

I think this is the stage where you second guess yourself and your ability. So I spent some time today listening to some of my favorite inspirational music (at least it is to me).

Here are some of the songs that I find inspiring....I tried to add them as a playlist, but my little brain could not figure that out....maybe soon! I am still trying, but for you go:

One Moment In Time --------------------Whitney Houston
The Climb -----------------------------Miley Cyrus
If Everyone Cared ---------------------Nickelback
You Can Get It If You Really Want -----Jimmy Cliff
It's My Life --------------------------Bon Jovi
I Hope You Dance ----------------------Lee Ann Womack
I Believe I Can Fly -------------------R. Kelly
Hero ----------------------------------Mariah Carey
Hold On -------------------------------Good Charlotte
Angels Among Us -----------------------Alabama
When You Believe ----------------------Mariah and Whitney
Beautiful Day -------------------------U2
Jesus Take The Wheel ------------------Carrie Underwood
What I've Done ------------------------Linkin Park
I Can See Clearly Now -----------------Jimmy Cliff
We're Not Gonna Take It ---------------Twisted Sister
Live Like You Were Dying --------------Tim McGraw
Life's A Dance ------------------------John Michael Montgomery
100 Years------------------------------Five For Fighting
Good Ridance (Time of Your Life)------Green Day

One of my favorite songs EVAH!! INDEPENDENCE DAY - MARTIMA MCBRIDE!!
I hope that one person can find a song that they relate to from my list!! It is eclectic and covers lots of genres!! Have fun and maybe one day I can figure out that playlist!!

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Random happenings from my totally random day!!

Today at the preschool that I am the director of I start my morning off by loudly calling down the hall with parents in ear shot....."Dom did it with a HOE!!"

I am of course answering a question from a teacher about how the garden got tilled! Really? Really?? did I just yell that down the hallway?? Bursts of laughter and of course a bizarre look from Dom and my day was off to a rockin start!!

Next stop on my crazy train...I went to call my Dr. to see if all of my information had been faxed to the hospital for pre-op clearance and's how this went:

Me:Hello this is Robyn .... I am calling to see if everything got faxed to JFK for my surgery next week??
Nurse: Robyn ..... We don't have any records for you here...
Me: are you serious I was in last week and the week before...all bloodwork was done there, EKG...Dr. sent me for chest x-ray
Nurse: NO, I don't see anything...I am looking in the computer
Me: let me spell my name for you
Nurse: no, sorry don't see it
Me: Are you kidding me???...YOU did my EKG last week...remember me...the fat girl..getting lap band in 7 days??
Nurse: Oh, I do kinda remember you
Me: Do you think now you can find my file?
Nurse: Let me get to a computer that's working....
Me: working? the one you were on wasn't working?
Nurse: No, sometimes it gets stuck and can't find people's names...
Me to myself....WTF...if you knew this why the HELL didn't you look in the other computer in the first place!!
Nurse: Oh there it issssss!!!!

Ok now that my BP is high and I was getting ready to loose my mind...I think I need another EKG...LOL!!

All necessary info to hospital and Dr. clearnace sent!! YAY!! Last step is tomorrow for the pysch eval (my hubby says I have no hope there) and then to hospital for pre-registration and payment!

Wish me luck!!

Monday, September 14, 2009

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Sunday, September 13, 2009

Rough Weekend!

Wow...this has been a rough weekend emotionally for me.

It is getting so close to the surgery and that has me so nervous. I am super excited, but super nervous at the same time.

This weekend was a bad food weekend for me. I was doing so well on low carb and this weekend I blew that...hope I don't gain the 5lbs that I lost back!!!
I could gain 5 lbs by looking at a Snickers Bar!!

My gorgeous puppy has been sick all weekend. She is 4 years old and has severe bladder stones. She is scheduled for surgery on Wednesday, but I am going to try to get her in for emergency surgery tomorrow!!

This is my baby:


This has made for a very trying weekend for my husband and I! We will get through!

I did get to go shopping and get all of the post surgery foods:
(Clear Liquids for 1 week)

broth and bullion
Protein Powder and Muscle Milk

Side note:
I love, love, love Jay Robb Whey Protein Powder!!
I also love Muscle milk light in Cookies and Creme and Chocolate!!

Big News: found out today that one of my bestest best friends is coming the day before my surgery and staying for a couple of days!! YAY!!! This is a picture of my three besties at my wedding!! My friens are my life....I love them soooo much!!

That's it for now...Let's see what tomorrow brings in my random life!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009


  1. Not be diabetic anymore!
  2. Fit in an airple seat and TRAVEL!!
  3. Wear "normal" clothes!
  4. Run!!
  5. Fit in a booth and not feel like I can't breathe!
  6. Walk without getting winded!
  7. Not sweat!
  8. Have my thighs NOT rub together!
  9. Buy cute necklaces in a normal length without an extender!
  10. Wear sexy HIGH heels!
  11. Wear a bathingsuit.....not a Swimdress!
  12. Have my husband be able to wrap his arms around me!
  13. Wear my seatbelt!
  14. Be able to walk into any room with confidence!!
  15. Fit into rides at amusement parks!
  16. Eat in front of people without feeling like I should be hiding!
  17. Have a baby!!
  18. Not be the "fat chick"
  19. Never be embarased at the GYM again!!
  20. Never let my weight hold me back!
  21. Not have to shop at the "fat chick" stores!
  22. Not feel my stomach on the tops of my thighs!
  23. Feel proud of myself AND how I look!!
  24. Be an AVERAGE size!
  25. Wear cute, sexy, feminine clothes!!

Well, if that laundry list above isn't enough reason to have this surgery...then, I don't know what is!! I am ready and the count down is on!! YAY!!

The Day is almost here!

Well I have decided to have Lap Band surgery. I am almost finished with all of my pre-op testing and my surgery date is quickly approaching. It is September 23rd, 2009...that's right just 10 days away.

My pre-op diet has consisted of low-carb and I LOST 5 POUNDS!!!

Sometimes I wonder what the hell I m doing and then I realize what the hell I am doing and know that I have made the right decision.

Am I scared? YES

Am I excited? YES
Am I nervous? YES
Am I questioning? YES
Do I know I am making the right decision? YES

I have amazing family and friends that are by my side every step of the way. I have chosen not to tell most people in my life and that is a very personal for me. I do not want to hear any negative comments. I am doing this for my health and it is my decision! Go ME!!